This is Why I’ll Never Succeed

This is Why I’ll Never Succeed

My alarm goes off. I hit snooze. I go back to sleep. My alarm goes off again. I hit snooze. My alarm goes off again. I hit snooze.
I finally get out of bed at the absolute latest time it takes to wash my face, brush my teeth, and get dressed. There’s no time for breakfast.
I make it to work just in time. I’m hungry. I can only focus on getting through until lunchtime.
I didn’t prepare anything for lunch. I grab the quickest thing I can before I have to go back to work.
Something comes up. The time I planned to use to catch up is now used for the unplanned work. I’ll have to stay later to catch up. I tell myself I can’t workout now because I will get home too late.
I get home. I feel tired. I tell myself it was a long day. I deserve to relax with some television. I watch an episode of my favorite show. I can choose between getting ready for tomorrow or watching another episode. I’ll do it in the morning. I’ll make sure I wake up early.
I watch three more hours of television. I lay in bed wide awake. I can’t sleep. After a while I drift to sleep.
My alarm goes off. I hit snooze. I go back sleep.

This is Why I’ll Never Succeed

I tell myself I’m tired.
I tell myself there isn’t enough time in the day.
I tell myself I’ll start when the time is right.
I tell myself I’ll get it together on my day off.
I tell myself if it isn’t perfect then I shouldn’t bother with it.
I tell myself I have time.

This is Why I’ll Never Succeed

I listen to other people.
I listen to other people when they tell me to be more reasonable with my ambitions.
I listen to other people when they tell me the odds are against me.
I listen to other people when they tell me my dreams are only fantasies.
I listen to other people for what I should like.
I listen to other people to be liked.

This is Why I’ll Never Succeed

I don’t try.
I don’t fight.
I don’t learn.
I don’t grow.
I don’t risk.
I don’t rise.

This is Why I’ll Never Succeed

I live day to day, hoping for the time when I can prove myself, wishing for the day I can show the world what I have within me. I accept being average. I lose my hunger. I give in to the defeat. And then, I don’t. I can’t.
I accept responsibility.
I accept that it isn’t going to be easy.
I accept the challenge.
I fuel my hunger. I give in to my heart.
There are no days off.
There are no days to catch up.
There are no excuses.
My alarm goes off. I am out of bed. I deny the snooze button. I go for a walk. I put on the clothes I laid out the night before. I look at the plan I’ve created for the day. I attack.
This is How I Will Succeed.